WEIRD

When I first knew I thought I loved Michael, It was right after my first period at the bookstore (Borders) and I had a dream about him. I never knew my feelings right away the dream told me like 'yes this him' and I'd had a dream about our first date or something idk.

Anyways.

I have an IUD now and Mike is a douchebag. Whatever. Maybe I'm being too mean but I'm in pain and I'm angry and lashing out has never been a striking or positive quality I have so meh.

ANYWAYYYYYY

I swear to god he waited today to make sure I got to the bus stop safe. Part of me glared. Another part of me was like JUST APOLOGIZE GOD DAMN IT YOU IDIOT. Another part of me wanted to push him. Another part of me did not care.

Anywho.

I haven't had my period in months, mostly I get a brownish blotching, and that is more common now that I've been going downtown, but I figure it's just exercise because that also makes me bleed.

I haven't had pure red period blood in awhile.

I sit down and go to the bathroom, and I'm like, 'wtf is that vagina blood smell?' and I look-AND I SWEAR TO GOD IT''S RED PERIOD BLOOD.

ugh.

why.

I'm blaming Mike.

I really hope he doesn't read this or his ego is gonna grow so large that it'll finally be big enough to eclipse Jupiter.

THIS FUCKING GUY. WHY. WHY HIM.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

He needs buddha or jesus or an intervention or therapy or something idk.